Free Day: binging vs 1% loss

Last week on my free day I didn't keep track of my calorie intake nor did I workout. I ordered Gorgonzola Alfredo for dinner which apparently has over 1300 calories, I didn't know the caloric value at the time. I usual eat some of it and save the rest for the next day but because my next free day was a week away and I have a "thing" (no thanks to childhood habits) about throwing food away, I ate it all. Gasp! I know, well it get's better. Earlier that day we had a birthday party for our son, and of course I had a piece of cake and this amazing drink my son's teacher taught him how to make with orange sherbet, orange soda and root beer. I don't remember what I had for breakfast and I didn't snack that day but after the birthday and dinner I'm pretty sure I could have gone without eating for 3 days. Needless to say I didn't get my 1% loss the first week.
The second week I made a mental agreement with myself to only eat what I really felt I just had to have on my free day. Well when the day came I was craving everything under the sun and really looking forward to this day. I knew I would have some unforgivable calories so when I got up that morning I made myself a protein drink with some blueberries and lots of spinach. I had some nuts and berries for a snack. That afternoon our family planned to see a movie so I waited then to order pasta for lunch and a few thinks I craved like popcorn and fries and wine. I planned to keep note of what I would eat this day but It didn't happen. Anyway, after the movie we planned on picking up some food from the grocery store. You know that rule about never going to the grocery store when your hungry, well turns out the same rule applies on you free day even if your not hungry. So of course I bought chocolate, but instead of buying a whole bag of peanut butter cups or even a chocolate bar I went to the bulk aisle, don't worry because this is where I make a conscious decision to only get a couple of different bite size pieces. Yea me! When I when home I took a bite out of one and put it back in the bag then a few minutes later I took a bite out of the other. I felt satisfied of the previous craving and had no desire to go OCD on a bag of chocolate. Yea me again! I felt like there was real change finally happening and I was on my way. The third week I plan to be be more conscious and even plan to keep track of my calorie intake. I feel more confident now and I am starting to trust my judgment, Its a Good Thing :) YEA ME!
I feel that each week for me makes me a better person and brings me closer to where I want to be. I am creating more new habits during this challenge than ever imagined. I share this horror story with you because maybe you too are having a wild free day too or maybe you've been depriving your self and teetering the balance the other way, either way I think its important to listen to that little voice in your head that fights for you each day to be better for You. We all have days we don't want to keep going on this diet and wish for the end but what I've noticed in just the last two weeks is that its working! I see change in myself each week and I plan to continuing on this journey even after the four weeks.